Finding the Light part 2

The following year was a year of surgeries and following the advice of specialist after specialist, trying to fix everything that they told me was wrong with me.
I had two more surgeries for endometriosis. Each one did make me feel better, yet I still had a tough time with my periods.
The whole year, I gave myself reiki most days. I tried to meditate, wasn’t sure exactly how to meditate, since my mind is all over the place. I gave my dogs reiki and went to the circles. I was working on my spiritual journey. I consulted with others I had met, yet, couldn’t grasp what was happening to me.
Again, why me?
What did I do to deserve this? Two pregnancy losses and a horrible disease that took my fertility when I wasn’t looking! It took my self confidence, my self worth, my dancing ability (I like to bust a move) and sometimes, my sex life!
This was my lesson to learn. Not necessarily the why, but how it can help?
I went to a psychic, she’s awesome, she told me to just start writing. So I started this blog. I had no idea that I would be able to help someone. I didn’t even realize I was helping myself, until I received feedback. Thank you!

About our last embryo

I have been diagnosed with Endometriosis, Adenomyosis and Hashimoto's Thyroiditis. I've had Lyme, Bell's Palsy and the Shingles before I was 25. I've done IVF, with and without immunosuppression and FET. I have had two miscarriages. I am married to my best friend and I am Infertile. Through these struggles, I had to unlearn and relearn many things, through spirituality and alternative healing modalities, I have begun the process of becoming who I am supposed to be. A healer.
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2 Responses to Finding the Light part 2

  1. Serenstar says:

    You’ve helped a lot of people who have dealt with and are dealing with this illness. I can totally understand when you say that your feelings of self worth go along with the fertility loss. Sending positive thoughts your way and again, you do offer a lot to everyone.

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